Fate or Willful ?

the best answer to cover a manner is

by saying 'it is fate'

but the truth is

it just ur willful of admitting it

'the true answer'

there may be a historical scene or any incident

that changes u

from a loving and caring person

to a cruel and cold-blooded human being

justice

a word seem very unfamiliar to u

that been covered by a cloudy shield

makes u cant differentiate

the true and false

the shield that built by urself

may be to protect some other reason

may be to protect urself

or

may be to protect the weak personality in ur body

hurt

is what u will get 

when u decide to choose to hide it

shame to show it

 jealousy which always attact to it

in the end

u will drown deeper and deeper

when struggling in a 'quicksand'

the one u hurt

eventually is the one who care u the most

the more they care of u

the more they will get hurt

as u was pushing them hardly to aside

in conclusion

they will started to avoid u

and the only one u feel that u can depend on

are the one who standing aside

doesnt care of what was happening around u

jux watching u till the end of the 'drama'

when those who care of u walk away

and those who doesnt care of u staying there as audience

and thus , u feel that the latter are the one who care about u

but the fact is

it is NOT!

u trusted them

blame the good, trust the bad

in the end

when things go to a sad point

u blame that thats ur fate and bla bla bla

but when think properly

actually

its jux ur stubborness of knowing

u had done something wrong

make a wrong decision

u dont wan other to think something bad of u

u jux wearing a mask

live around in the world

~PEACE~